Pilihan yg baik bg seorang hamba adalah apa yg Allah pilihkan baginya..sbb Allah lebih mengetahui ttg pilihan itu drpd dia sendiri terhadap dirinya..dan Allah lebih mengasihi hambaNya drpd ibu yg melahirkannya.Kerana itu,seseorang hamba harus menerima ketentuan Tuhannya..menyerahkan semua kepadaNya..dan mencukupkan diri dgn kecukupan yg diberikan Allah kepadanya.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
things that i should bear in mind
AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY ANDELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THEREIS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY .
Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins:
1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a fewbillion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests areunable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.
2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime.
3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumours.
4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental,food and lifestyle factors.
5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.
6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow,gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.
7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.
8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do notresult in more tumor destruction.
9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hencethe person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.
10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancercells to spread to other sites.
11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.
WHAT CANCER CELLS FEED ON:
a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes likeNutraSweet, Equal,Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molassesbut only in very sma ll amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in colour. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt.
b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk andsubstituting with unsweetened soy milk, cancer cells are being starved.
c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather thanbeef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to people with cancer.
d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkalineenvironment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reachdown to cellular levels within 15 minutes to no urish and enhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells tryand drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed attemperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).
e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties.Water-best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.
13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls ofcancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.
14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable thebody's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, thebody's normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.
15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger,unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relaxand enjoy life.
16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellularlevel. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.
Copy-paste from nuyr..Thank u nabilah dear :)
Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins:
1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a fewbillion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests areunable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.
2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime.
3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumours.
4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental,food and lifestyle factors.
5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.
6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow,gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.
7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.
8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do notresult in more tumor destruction.
9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hencethe person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.
10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancercells to spread to other sites.
11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.
WHAT CANCER CELLS FEED ON:
a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes likeNutraSweet, Equal,Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molassesbut only in very sma ll amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in colour. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt.
b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk andsubstituting with unsweetened soy milk, cancer cells are being starved.
c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather thanbeef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to people with cancer.
d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkalineenvironment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reachdown to cellular levels within 15 minutes to no urish and enhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells tryand drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed attemperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).
e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties.Water-best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.
(ehem2, k sarah :) )
12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines become putrifiedand leads to more toxic buildup.13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls ofcancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.
14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable thebody's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, thebody's normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.
15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger,unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relaxand enjoy life.
16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellularlevel. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.
Copy-paste from nuyr..Thank u nabilah dear :)
Saturday, April 25, 2009
the new so-called working experience and the blessing :)
Its been a week that i started my practical in Department of Corporate Industrial Relations, Human Resource at Menara Maybank, Jalan Tun Perak 15th Floor together with Kajol n also Muiz..
I just returned from melaka on the 19th pagi...So actually..i did not have enough rest..and that Monday morning(20th April 2009) sgtla malas rasanya..seriously...
So pagi yg hening itu we headed to masjid jamek via putra yg sgt penuh dan sesak itu...
We arrived exactly at 8.45 am at 44th floor(at this point dah cam pening2 the fact sgt tinggi maka tekanan udara sudah tidak stable)
Frankly, i was so nervous and a little bit afraid knowing the surrounding being in a company...
But alhamdulillah...the officers there are very nice and helpful i like to share with us their experience..
Especially my boss...he's a chinese guy..married with two children..my first impression was that he's a serious type of guy ,workaholic type...but i was wrong all together...hakikatnya orgnya sgt family like...penuh dengan integrity and nilai-nilai murni yg sgt tinggi..dlm hati ak selalu berdetik betapa bagusnya jika insan seperti boss nih msuk islam...he would be a very good Muslim i supposed..He is very sensitive with our food...When he brought me and Muiz to Ipoh for outstation...sebelum masuk kedai makan tuh dier tunjukkan dulu tanda halal kt luar pintu tuh..hehe..
Even another officer awal-awal lagi...dier dah bagitahu pasal prayer room and at one time tuh..one chinese officer asked me:
She: where's muiz?
Me:he's praying...
She: U tak pray kah?
Me: I da pray td :)
Apa yg kitaorg belajar aderla basically about industrial relations...the relevant statues are the Employment Act, the Industrial Relations Act and the Trade Unions Act...
Apa yg kitorg belajar setakat ini is the function and the objective of the department and how does it operate...
Generally,i've been blessed...ak sgt bersyukur sbb dicampak kt department ini..Reasons why ?
1) having officers of chinese and indians who are very sensitive of us being Muslims...
2) kak Nur( our dear clerk) yg tiap-tiap hari akan tanya kitorg dah sembahyang ker belum..at least ader org yg sentiasa ingatkan dan peka akan tanggungjawab sebagai Muslim...
3) belajar utk menjadi lebih baik apabila berjumpa dengan bermacam-macam jenis org...
Tapi selama seminggu ini..i have things wandering in my mind...am i gonna work in a bank? Can i cope with the situation? Am i able to handle my stress? able to handle my family? am i strong enough spiritually to be in the corporate world?
Melihat keadaan hidup yg sgt hectic dan the hustle and bustle of KL life..i would think again the place that i will settle down with my future-husband (tidak diketahui seiapa)...if i'm still single..xperla kot..have no other responsibilities except for myself...but if i have a family..alahai..kesiannyala to them coz i'll be very bz...going out-station..going for meetings and coming home late for which my kids must have gone to sleep...i want to work in a place where i'm near to me children..
But ya rezki masing-masing kita tak pernah nak tahu..Allah mungkin ada rencana yg lebih baik utk kita...But whatever it is...this praktikal has made me think a lot of things..but ya..considering the time to have my own family is a long way to go..but having these thing and plan in mind is not that early...bcoz we have to think about it..
Lastly, hope that 9 weeks will be filled with learning and experiencing new things and the legal aspect and plus the soft skills and the communicating skills..
*Ya Allah..Moga kau tetapkan imanku dan pendirianku ini sepanjang aku di sini dan jauhkanlah aku dari perkara-perkara yg Kau murkai..AMEEN..*
I just returned from melaka on the 19th pagi...So actually..i did not have enough rest..and that Monday morning(20th April 2009) sgtla malas rasanya..seriously...
So pagi yg hening itu we headed to masjid jamek via putra yg sgt penuh dan sesak itu...
We arrived exactly at 8.45 am at 44th floor(at this point dah cam pening2 the fact sgt tinggi maka tekanan udara sudah tidak stable)
Frankly, i was so nervous and a little bit afraid knowing the surrounding being in a company...
But alhamdulillah...the officers there are very nice and helpful i like to share with us their experience..
Especially my boss...he's a chinese guy..married with two children..my first impression was that he's a serious type of guy ,workaholic type...but i was wrong all together...hakikatnya orgnya sgt family like...penuh dengan integrity and nilai-nilai murni yg sgt tinggi..dlm hati ak selalu berdetik betapa bagusnya jika insan seperti boss nih msuk islam...he would be a very good Muslim i supposed..He is very sensitive with our food...When he brought me and Muiz to Ipoh for outstation...sebelum masuk kedai makan tuh dier tunjukkan dulu tanda halal kt luar pintu tuh..hehe..
Even another officer awal-awal lagi...dier dah bagitahu pasal prayer room and at one time tuh..one chinese officer asked me:
She: where's muiz?
Me:he's praying...
She: U tak pray kah?
Me: I da pray td :)
Apa yg kitaorg belajar aderla basically about industrial relations...the relevant statues are the Employment Act, the Industrial Relations Act and the Trade Unions Act...
Apa yg kitorg belajar setakat ini is the function and the objective of the department and how does it operate...
Generally,i've been blessed...ak sgt bersyukur sbb dicampak kt department ini..Reasons why ?
1) having officers of chinese and indians who are very sensitive of us being Muslims...
2) kak Nur( our dear clerk) yg tiap-tiap hari akan tanya kitorg dah sembahyang ker belum..at least ader org yg sentiasa ingatkan dan peka akan tanggungjawab sebagai Muslim...
3) belajar utk menjadi lebih baik apabila berjumpa dengan bermacam-macam jenis org...
Tapi selama seminggu ini..i have things wandering in my mind...am i gonna work in a bank? Can i cope with the situation? Am i able to handle my stress? able to handle my family? am i strong enough spiritually to be in the corporate world?
Melihat keadaan hidup yg sgt hectic dan the hustle and bustle of KL life..i would think again the place that i will settle down with my future-husband (tidak diketahui seiapa)...if i'm still single..xperla kot..have no other responsibilities except for myself...but if i have a family..alahai..kesiannyala to them coz i'll be very bz...going out-station..going for meetings and coming home late for which my kids must have gone to sleep...i want to work in a place where i'm near to me children..
But ya rezki masing-masing kita tak pernah nak tahu..Allah mungkin ada rencana yg lebih baik utk kita...But whatever it is...this praktikal has made me think a lot of things..but ya..considering the time to have my own family is a long way to go..but having these thing and plan in mind is not that early...bcoz we have to think about it..
Lastly, hope that 9 weeks will be filled with learning and experiencing new things and the legal aspect and plus the soft skills and the communicating skills..
*Ya Allah..Moga kau tetapkan imanku dan pendirianku ini sepanjang aku di sini dan jauhkanlah aku dari perkara-perkara yg Kau murkai..AMEEN..*
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
I just don't know....
1.I just don't know why these things day by day makes me feel so miserable...
What should i do?
Hurm...just be with it..ya perhaps i can...
2.Exam ends here..yeah! 28hb April 2009..the date! oh no...*tawakkal*
3.i do need the letter mrs aikol (is it a she? whatever!) for the LIDV process..well nevermind i'll make them call you instead..
4. i miss someone...
5. can't wait to see the grass on the 18th floor...haha..;D
6.the packing process begins..which i'm not looking forward tooo...haih...
7.the names and confirmation please...
8. i going home to do my laundery(sgt down coz the washing-machine in Block E suddenly `dissapeared' )
9.Thank you friends for the love and support...
10.Abah and ummi dearie for the continous prayers...
11.Acknowledgement to my dedicated lecturers and trainer(ini khas utk MR lawyer encik nazrey hihik)
12.Allah...Alhamdulillah..thank you for all that u've given me...the strength n guidance..
13.heading home....
What should i do?
Hurm...just be with it..ya perhaps i can...
2.Exam ends here..yeah! 28hb April 2009..the date! oh no...*tawakkal*
3.i do need the letter mrs aikol (is it a she? whatever!) for the LIDV process..well nevermind i'll make them call you instead..
4. i miss someone...
5. can't wait to see the grass on the 18th floor...haha..;D
6.the packing process begins..which i'm not looking forward tooo...haih...
7.the names and confirmation please...
8. i going home to do my laundery(sgt down coz the washing-machine in Block E suddenly `dissapeared' )
9.Thank you friends for the love and support...
10.Abah and ummi dearie for the continous prayers...
11.Acknowledgement to my dedicated lecturers and trainer(ini khas utk MR lawyer encik nazrey hihik)
12.Allah...Alhamdulillah..thank you for all that u've given me...the strength n guidance..
13.heading home....
Bus accidents....The fear & sadness...
April 13, 2009 21:46 PM
Neglecting Safety Among Causes Of Bus Accidents - Ong
KUALA LUMPUR, April 13 (Bernama) -- A lackadaisical attitude among bus operators concerning safety is one of the causes of bus accidents, said Transport Minister Datuk Seri Ong Tee Keat. He said there were also some old buses which did not have their body frames strengthened in the interest of safety. "In the case of an accident, it can have serious repercussions as to the safety of passengers and other road users," he told reporters after launching the 'My New Village Stories' programme on pay television station, Astro, here Monday. Ong said this in commenting on the express bus tragedy at Km443 of the North-South Expressway near Rawang which claimed the lives of six people and left three people injured at dawn. He said the matter of bus accidents needed to viewed in a comprehensive manner including the subject of fatigue among drivers and also poor management by the operators. He also admitted that ineffective enforcement was also a contributor to bus accidents happening. On today's tragedy, Ong said the ministry was still waiting for the outcome of investigations being conducted by the Road Safety Department (JKJR) and Malaysian Institute of Road Safety Research (Miros) before taking further action. The six killed were five passengers and one of two drivers of the AB Ekspres-owned bus that was carrying 34 passengers, including the three who were injured. The double-decker bus was on its way from Changlun, Kedah to Kuala Lumpur when it went out of control before hitting the road divider and overturning. -- BERNAMA
This is again after number of incidents...BUS ACCIDENTS...So sad seeing those who died.. are husband,father,fiance..returning back to Kuala Lumpur after meeting their loved ones far back in Kedah...And that their family member's had to accept the sad and dreadful news of sorrow after a happy and memorable time they spend together...Owh..i just can't imagine the feeling..
I'm off to Malacca this friday..and these incidents really make me sooo afraid to be on a bus..ya and adding the fact that i don't like buses actually..(ya..my ordinary transport is via car or plane..xkan nk naik smpan kot) Until i feel like..i'll not allow my loved ones...to be on a bus! ya but that of course that would be sooo unrealistic because sometimes thats the only option that they have...
But ya..talking of DEATH it can just happen anywhere,anytime at any place..u just not have to wait being on a bus to die! with ALLAH's will..he can just `take' it and make an`end' to it..The best is just by praying to Allah that HE would always be guarding us in safety..Despite, please my dearie pak cik bus..please do be careful n always think of the safety of the passengers first...Those people are loved ones of others and u know how it feels to lose someone u really love..
Takziah to family members victims of the bus accident in Rawang...
`our safe journey..alhamdulillah'
Monday, April 13, 2009
significant biru dan hijau...
As you can see the combination of colour is GREEN & BLUE..
Kenapa? Because these are the colours which really reminds me of my dear friend named NAILI..because she was so obsess and really like these two colours..until the colour became the theme of our class when we were in Form 3..hehehe..
Saya abadikan warna ini semoga NAILI sentiasa bersama sy walaupun hakikatnya dia sgt jauh dari saya...
rencana yang menanti...
Today i just finished my equity paper..how was it? hard to explain but alhamdulillah i was very calm thus it really helped me a lot in answering...I still have another paper to go..this wednesday...usul fiqh...^_^ i really like and love this subject..just a wonderful and beautiful knowledge...What i can say is that now its just the time for me to pray to HIM that my results will turn out to be ok..
Hurm..the last paper will be on Wednesday and after that...my dates are filled with activities, datelines,practical,urusan kerajaan,weddings,program,returning to brunei and stuffs...
I think i'll be busy until August...hehe...but whatever it is..i'm looking forward with my days ahead..to expand my knowledge...to learn more..to challenge my ability..hehe..
16 April 2009 - Abah will be here :)
17 April 2009- Off to Malacca
18 April 2009 - Having fun in Malacca ^_^ with kak hajar n khairun
19 April 2009- Moving out to HAFSAH (brg aku yg sangat banyak)
20 April 2009-Practical starts
21 April 2009- Start to brainstorm on the program
24 April 2009-Start to find sponsors
25 April 2009-Paperwork
2 May 2009-renew road tax and pasport
5 May 2009 - submit working paper
11 May 2009-Start to invite VIPs ( go on continuing)
End of May = some weddings perhaps
30 May 2009 - adik kesayangan sy balik ^_^
6 June 2009 - abg zahir's wedding at Putrajaya
June 2009 - the work continues
27 June 2009 - Fly away to Brunei yeah! everything ends here...
So much to do..but so much to learn and to have fun..^_^ hope that the things that i'll do and the days that i'll face ahead will make me understand more about life and to face the real challenging world..May ALLAH always be with me in my journey..and always be in HIS blessings..
(Moga aku sentiasa istiqamah pd jalanMU)
Hurm..the last paper will be on Wednesday and after that...my dates are filled with activities, datelines,practical,urusan kerajaan,weddings,program,returning to brunei and stuffs...
I think i'll be busy until August...hehe...but whatever it is..i'm looking forward with my days ahead..to expand my knowledge...to learn more..to challenge my ability..hehe..
16 April 2009 - Abah will be here :)
17 April 2009- Off to Malacca
18 April 2009 - Having fun in Malacca ^_^ with kak hajar n khairun
19 April 2009- Moving out to HAFSAH (brg aku yg sangat banyak)
20 April 2009-Practical starts
21 April 2009- Start to brainstorm on the program
24 April 2009-Start to find sponsors
25 April 2009-Paperwork
2 May 2009-renew road tax and pasport
5 May 2009 - submit working paper
11 May 2009-Start to invite VIPs ( go on continuing)
End of May = some weddings perhaps
30 May 2009 - adik kesayangan sy balik ^_^
6 June 2009 - abg zahir's wedding at Putrajaya
June 2009 - the work continues
27 June 2009 - Fly away to Brunei yeah! everything ends here...
So much to do..but so much to learn and to have fun..^_^ hope that the things that i'll do and the days that i'll face ahead will make me understand more about life and to face the real challenging world..May ALLAH always be with me in my journey..and always be in HIS blessings..
(Moga aku sentiasa istiqamah pd jalanMU)
Saturday, April 11, 2009
tangisan sebelum exam~
hari ini tamatla 4 hari berturut-turut exam berlalu...
selama 4 hari i really tried hard to make myself being in a stable condition...n to be calm to get through it...
``ulfah ni happy jerla"
``ko tak tension ker ulfah"
soalan-soalan biaser org tanya ak kerna ternyata muka dan riak wajahku sebegitu gembira seperti tiada apa yg berlaku..namun di hati saya..tuhan jer yg tahu...
dan selepas perasaan itu `berkumpul' ternyata sudah tidak dpt ditahan lg...
maka aku menangis dn sebak sebelum ke exam company tadi..menuju ker main hall dgn perasaan yg penuh pasrah...berserah pd Allah...
pertama kali dalam sejarah...menangis nk pergi exam...-__-
*sekian*
selama 4 hari i really tried hard to make myself being in a stable condition...n to be calm to get through it...
``ulfah ni happy jerla"
``ko tak tension ker ulfah"
soalan-soalan biaser org tanya ak kerna ternyata muka dan riak wajahku sebegitu gembira seperti tiada apa yg berlaku..namun di hati saya..tuhan jer yg tahu...
dan selepas perasaan itu `berkumpul' ternyata sudah tidak dpt ditahan lg...
maka aku menangis dn sebak sebelum ke exam company tadi..menuju ker main hall dgn perasaan yg penuh pasrah...berserah pd Allah...
pertama kali dalam sejarah...menangis nk pergi exam...-__-
*sekian*
Saturday, April 4, 2009
six months ago......
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
Friday, April 3, 2009
Department at Maybank...
Cik Rina yg sgt baik hati telah menelefon Kajol utk memberitahu kami mengenai LAP kami...
Maka cik Kajol yg sgt baik hati itu pun telah menelefon cik aufa khalilah utk memberitahu bahawa kami bertiga (ak,kajol n muiz) diletakkan kt:
DEPARTMENT OF CORPORATE INDUSTRIAL RELATION
Haih...mcm takutlah plak...nama dept gempak bkn main..Adakah ak leh adapt pd suasana di sana?
Tidak tahu..tunggu dan lihat..
*TUHAN..tetapkan imanku, hatiku dan pendirianku di mana sahaja ak berada*
Maka cik Kajol yg sgt baik hati itu pun telah menelefon cik aufa khalilah utk memberitahu bahawa kami bertiga (ak,kajol n muiz) diletakkan kt:
DEPARTMENT OF CORPORATE INDUSTRIAL RELATION
Haih...mcm takutlah plak...nama dept gempak bkn main..Adakah ak leh adapt pd suasana di sana?
Tidak tahu..tunggu dan lihat..
*TUHAN..tetapkan imanku, hatiku dan pendirianku di mana sahaja ak berada*
EXAM!!
I'm in the exam mode...hahaha..but ya..even in exam period pn really try not to put the presure..yeker?
EXAM SCHEDULE
Land Law 1 - 03/04/09 = DONE = blur @ 1st instance / insufficient time
Banking Law- 08/04/09 = DONE = lupa perkataan integration
Public International Law 1 - 09/04/09 = DONE = no comment
Methods of Da'wah - 10/04/09 = DONE = spot kuar..tp susah btul nk kuar arabic words
Company Law 1 - 11/04/09 = DONE = xsempat jwb..
Equity 1 -13/04/09 = DONE = alhamdulillah..tp tidak terlalu yakin..
Usul Fiqh III-15/04/09
yang merah di atas tuh paling crucial..haih..
*Moga dipermudahkan TUHAN*
Bersedia dr segi fizikal dan mental dan spiritual(cukup makan,cukup tido, n cukup pengisian rohani)
Moga `kamu' berbahagia...
Hakikat kehidupan..semunya telah ditentukan oleh Allah..dan DIA berkuasa menentukan segalanya..Siapa ak dan siapa kamu utk menghalang ketentuan Allah..
Tatkala mengetahui..BLN 6?
Terkedu jap...Air mata mengalir tanpa mengetahui sebabnya..walaupun hakikatnya ak sudah menerima segalan-galanya...susah nk explain...
Whatever pn..Moga kamu berbahagia...Ak doakan suma kebaikan dan kebahagiaan utk kamu...Kerna itu yg ak hrpkan agr kamu gembira dgn kehidupanmu...
TUHAN..dtgkan utkku yg terbaik utkku..AMEEN
Tatkala mengetahui..BLN 6?
Terkedu jap...Air mata mengalir tanpa mengetahui sebabnya..walaupun hakikatnya ak sudah menerima segalan-galanya...susah nk explain...
Whatever pn..Moga kamu berbahagia...Ak doakan suma kebaikan dan kebahagiaan utk kamu...Kerna itu yg ak hrpkan agr kamu gembira dgn kehidupanmu...
TUHAN..dtgkan utkku yg terbaik utkku..AMEEN
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