Beberapa hari selepas 8th March 2008...i called abah again..n it was confirmed that it was cancer stage 4 after the biopsy was done..the worst part the cancer cells had spreaded to his bones..n thats why he was having difficulty in walking...that time i was quite calm coz i already expected for the worse...
Abah ckp...pandai2la akak camne nk bitau adik2...time tuh..xsampai hati nk bitau via call or msj..so satu pagi tuh..i drove to s alam to meet my brother.. we had breakfast together n i think he was wondering napela kakak dier sorang ni sngup dtg jumpa dier...so..i told him after we finished our meal..irfan like usual..being so calm...maser tuh tahan jer nk nangis..(i can't cry..i had to be strong for my siblings!)
that time i was the only one to know besides ummi...i kept it to myself alone for about a week becoz a suitable time is necessary to inform other family members...apology on my part for the delay...i just can't bear to see atuk to be sad..rasanya baik my uncles yg ckp kt dier dgn cara yg agak berhemah supaya she doesnt get worried so badly...
secondly ismah...i only told her days after 8th march..the night she got her SPM result..alhamdulillah she got 11As which was quite a suprise for her..bcoz she had been so busy with her debate activity...seriusly..(kakak dier pn penat tgk dier tuh) nasib menang PPM..hehehe...maser dier amek result tuh muka dier sgt2la happy...looking at her...rasa nk menangis..hurm..after dat dier ikut gi uia coz nk handle online application dier for JPA..time tuh dier pelik naper abah suro mintak austarlia pdhal abh dulu yg beria-ria nk ismah gi mesir...kesian tgk muka dier..coz dier xtahu paper...tp ismah..adikku yg paling tenang..kejap jer kami menangis bersama..n kemudian dier ok..
time tuh plak dekat ngn exam...xtahu nk describe cane perasaan..Hanya berserah kepada Allah..n berdoa agar Allah akan terus bagi kekuatan kepada abah n ummi...n bg kekuatan kepada aku utk menghadapinya...
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