Sentiasa kuatkan hati...

salam blog...hye blog...

Today....i went to a place which really wrenched my heart...

Hurm sekali memandang ke kiri dan ke kanan...flashback asek berlaku...

Tapi aku ke sana dgn satu tujuan...

Kepada NADEEN...thanks dear...sbb sngup nk bwkkan brg irfan zaini..its just that it was too bad that i was not able to meet u..its ok..nway take care dear! :)

Kepada Auntie Faridah...thanks for the milo ice..sgt sedap n best..:) n the very warm welcome...really feel like home...

Now....

ALONE...missing them so much....

Ya Allah kabulkan doaku n permintaanku...Berikan yang terbaik buatku..Aku pasrah ngn segala ketentuanMu..Kau lebih mengetahui segalanya...

Ku perlukan kekuatan....

SENARAI PERKARA YG PERLU DIBUAT:

1) Case Review Land-Extent of Enjoyment of Land (Xpress Limited Sdn Bhd) 30/1/2009

2) Case Review Banking - UDT and Foley v Hill 11/03/2009

3) Prepare presentation Public International Law (Sources of International Law) 30/1/2009

4) Tutorial Question Company Law (1-5 Memorandum n Articles) 2/2/2009

5) Tutorial Question Land Law (Definition of Land (Fixture and Chatteal)) 30/1/2009

6) Tutorial Equity (Reception of Common Law and Equity in the Malaysian Legal System) 30/1/2009

7)Banking Assignment ( Examine the financial products of Malaysian Banks and the customer policy service) 11/3/2009

8)Assignment Manahij Ad-Da'wah (Manahij Da'wah Sheikh Qutb) 10/2/2009

TEST DATES:

1) company law 30/1/2009

2) Land law 5/2/2009

3)Methods of Da'wah 13/2/2009

URUSAN LAIN:

1) LESEN MATI AWL BULAN 2

2)INTERVIEW APPOINTMENT WITH MAYBANK OFFICER

3) ELECTRIC APPLIANCES REGISTRATION

4)AIR GULA

5) BALIK KG NGN ABAH...

Semoga dipermudahkan segalanya...

Tak sabar nk tunggu abah balik...^_^ inilah masa nk ngade2...

Semester baru yg mengelirukan...

Entering third year...

Let me see..at first..i was trully excited..but then..i was very n totally blurrr..

Apa-apa yg wat sumer cam tak kena...the subjects are interesting.. but me? still don't have the momentum of accelerating...tak wat notes..rasa malas yg teramat nk gi library...just feel like playing n playing n playing n playing....rasa cam dah jdik org lain...not the usually me..

Owh TUHAN..tolonglah aku...kenapa aku begini?

Peristiwa-peristiwa lepas juga kkdg2 menghantui..walupun pd hakikatnya...ak sudah lupakan semuanya....

but i enjoyed the inter-mahallah sports carnival so much...playing basketball( wlaupun xderla terror sgt)

but rasa sgt terkilan because i was not in a fit state...injured kt knee..so i played just for a few minutes for every game..sbb xsngup nk amek risk....

my team mates were such wonderful people...malaysians,bosnians n djebotians (btul ker eja?)
alhamdulillah...we got 1st place...:) such a memorable n sweet moment...

Kepada IRFAN ZAINI BIN ZAINUDIN...

maafkan akak syg...akak btul2 ingat dier balik lambat.....huhu..feel so bad n bad n bad...

itu sajer...

takder mood dah...

Moga aku akan sentiasa perbaiki segala kelemahan ku ini..

:(

Kejadian yang menyentap hatiku

Tepat pd jam lebey kurang 11.30 pg..naik bus utk menuju ke Jalan TAR..hanya kerna satu sebab...

Apakah sebab itu?

ILMU aka KNOWLEDGE aka al'`ilm = BUKU hehe ^_^

Kerana kesanggupan kami utk ke midvalley yg sgt jauh tetapi kecewa n `down' kerna buku `out of stock' maka pergila kami...

sempatla window shopping kt SOGO kerana apa?kerana menunggu pustaka mu'min buka balik after jumaat (aisy lupa balik)...byk jgk tempation..blazer n jacket yg labuh yg agk sukar utk dijumpai..nk beli sbb susah nk jumpa n the price was quite ok..tetapi...keinginan itu berjaya ditahan..hehehe..lenkali jerla...^_^

kembali kpd buku...sementara menunggu kedai dibuka..me n khairun just stood near the road...

sy ternampak mamat yg jual tisu tepi jalan tuh(tiada tgn sebelah)..bg seringgit kt seorang lagi mamat (raseyer cam homeless dr gayanya dn appearance)

dussshhhh....terkesima seketika...mamat si penjual tisu itu sendiri mencari rezki dgn hanya menjual tisu..boleh memberi seringgit kpd mamat yg lagi satu tuh...(for which i think RM 1 is a big value for the mamat penjual tisu)

itu namanya..namanya apa ek...xtaula nk ckp camne...oo ya..kesucian hati n jiwa seorang manusia...

serius...tersentap hatiku..i'm the kind xleh nk tgk benda2 mcm nih..leh nangis...huhu..

ak seraya membeli tisu drpd mamat itu....

what i learnt:

1) dont judge the book by its cover = walaupun hanya duduk di tepi jalan mencari rezki...namun hatinya tulus dn baik dn ikhlas utk membantu insan lain..wlaupun dier sndiri xckup makan.

Taqwa itu yg dilihat dan dinilai oleh Allah...sebaik2 manusia ialah insan yg bertaqwa...

2)bersyukur dgn pemberian dn nikmat Allah = sentiasa dn sentiasa perlu bersyukur..alhamdulillah,thank u Allah

3)aspect dn perspective da'wah yg indirect = dia hanya penjual tisu di tepi jalan TETAPI

mampu memberi da'wah yg sgt kecil wlaupun sgt indirect pd AKU!Moga Allah akak memberkati dn melindunginya...

itu sahaja..maybe pd stgh org...ini agak biasa...tp ak rasa saat td itu sgt istimewa...

sentiasa belajar dn memperbaiki diri dgn pelbagai saluran...even perkara itu nampak biasa dn kecil pd mata kita...

May Allah bless us all..^_^

Goodbye holiday....Welcoming the new me...

Hurm in two days..i will be returning to KL...leaving brunei on the 20th n 22nd i will be starting with e new semester..

This is the reality...being apart with my family thus during 1 month of my break..i really enjoyed every single moment with them..i will only be back for the next raya kot..perhaps...

Back in KL...i'm gonna have a non-stop life..hectic..bz..n more freedom i think...its gonna be continuos...i will be tired n exhausted..thats for sure..n lose lotzz of weight(which usually happens if i get too bz..hahaha) but i think thats good for me..to restrain n avoid myself to indulge n be in e situation which i regret n hurts my heart a lotz...

The truth is that...im so excited...so thrilled...to be back in campus..thats the enjoyable life n moment..can't wait to meet my frens n of course KL..shopping n stuff...hahaha..(there's no best mall in brunei~so materialistik~ who cares!)

And in days time awal muharram n new year will come...hoping for new hopes n happiness n success n blessing n miracles n rahmat n barakah n love from HIM e Al-Mighty n health of ABAH n strengh n spirit n all positive things...

Leaving all the sadness n pain n tears n instability of emotion n trials n tribulation n challenges...which i sometimes feel so grateful that Allah still loves me continues loving me n blessed me in sorts of ways that He desires..one of them `cubaan dlm hidup'..

Ulfah...be strong..always be urself..u urself..n urself..ur special in the way u are...n not special in the way u are..apology for all the weaknessess...be a better person for urself n not for others...love urself..coz people around u loves u..

Acknowledgment n thoughts n love to my family for the never ending support...khairun(mybestbuddy ever,pengkritik berjaya) naz n wanu(my rumies),nely n koca(jauh nun di uk~xkan ku lupakan panggilan jauh dr uk tatkala ku nyenyak tido di kala jam 4.30 pg hehe)acik,peqa,hasra,achok,shafa,naem,yan(sntiasa dpt membaca riak mukaku~being a good listener n advisor~sntiasa memastikan diri ini di jalan-Nya) `brother' a.k.a abg seiras(it was a pleasure knowing u) rakan2 library(sgt seronok memporak-perandakan library lvl 1 hehe) rkn2 YM(anda tau sape anda) rkn2 sekelas yg lain,rkn2 yg lain,extended family,rakan2n sahabat taulan abah,insan-insan mulia yg sentiasa mendoakan...

Only Allah can reward u guys for all the kindness..Barakallahufikum

THE NEW ME BEGINS NOW...^_^

Hati yg rapuh....

Hai hati mengapa kau begitu rapuh....

Hai hati mengapa kau begitu luluh....

Hai hati mengapa kau begitu angkuh....

Hai hati mengapa aku sgt sukar utk mengerti....

Kuatlah hati!

Tegarlah hati!

Hanya Allah sahaja yg mengerti....

Aidiladha yg sungguh bermakna...

Alhamdulillah....diberi kesempatan oleh Allah utk ak bersama2 dgn keluarga yg tercinta menyambut Aidiladha kali ini...keistimewaannya kali ini...abah lebih sihat berbanding Aidilfitri yg lalu...

Hari Raya AidilAdha,Hari Raya Qurban,Hari Raya Haji..ungkapan yg berbeza bg satu hari dn maksud yg sama...Mengingati pengorbanan Nabi Ibrahim A.S ke atas anaknya demi mematuhi firman dan perintah Ilahi...

Pengorbanan..satu ungkapan yg sgt senang diucapkan..namun n tetapi sukar n susah utk dizahirkan...pengorbanan? sgt meluas konsepnya...subjektif intrepretasinya...lain insan..lain mksud n pengertian pd dirinya...

Pada aku...pengorbanan itu sgt tinggi nilainya...hanya mereka2 yg btul2 kuat...tegar..dan teguh akan smpai ke tahap pengorbanan tertinggi...Pengorbanan utk Ilahi a.k.a Islam tercinta...

Waktu yg lalu....benar-benar mengajar aku erti pengorbanan...pengorbanan atas dasar kasih dan sayang....di kala abah sakit...kami susah..hanya insan-insan istimewa yg sanggup berkorban...meluangkan maser...menghulurkan tangan..meringankan beban kami...bersama kami..fuh..baruku mengerti hakikat INSAN...MANUSIA...

Apa-apa pn pengorbanan UMMI sukar utk ku gbrkan...tiada setitis air matanya...mengambarkan ketabahan dn kekuatannya yg akn menjadi inspirasiku...menempuh segalanya2 berseorangan....dgn adik-adikku yg msih kecil...ak mengerti pengorbanan isteri kpd suami tercinta...pengorbanan ummi kpd anak-anaknya...pengorbanan anak kpd ibunya(menjaga arwah atuk yg bed-ridden)

Setelah hampir 9 bln berlalu...alhamdulillah...ak bahagia...berada di sisi keluarga...melihat abah sehat..ummi gembira...adik-adikku yg bergelak ketawa...tiada perasaan sebahagia ini...Terima Kasih Ya Allah...ak rindukan irfan n ismah...moga merek berdua sentiasa dalam lindungan Ilahi..
Berkorban demi mengejar ilmu n cita-cita..:)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha...Moga kita sentiasa akan menjadi insan yg lebih baik...:)

Kisah 2008 (3) pemergian yg tidak disangka

April

After 2 weeks of patience..akhirnya ak pulang ke brunei...tak sabar rasanya nk jumpa abah...sejak abah diagnose xpenah jumpa lg face to face..atuk,ucu,m uda,p uda,p lang n family telah dahulu menyusul...n even rakan2 abh dr malaysia yg sngup terbang ke brunei semata2 ingin melawat abh..terima kasih kepada pcik jaafar jusoh n wife,auntie ros, n lg sorang rkn abh (sumer ex-KI) yg dtg melawat abh...n also kepada rakan2 abh yg lain yg xberhenti dtg melawat n memberi semangat...

Di kala pulang,p andak ckp yg arwah p ngah is being hospitalised after he was having difficulty in breathing..p ngah mmg ader some heart problem..but that was 10 years ago..time tuh atuk was in brunei being with us..maser kt hospital arwah p ngah byk kali sebut nama atuk...

A day after return,abh n umi went to KL coz he had a meeting...abh was not so strong that time so he had to use the wheel-chair to move..walking to much may worsen his condition..but his spirit continues as to live and run a normal life...to go on with his work and responsibility...his sickness did not stop him from doing anything..he even went to buy new clothes since xder bju yg leh dipakai akibat kejatuhan berat bdn yg sgt drastic..hehehe..he said he still wants to look nice n smart even sakit..hehehe..maser kt KL rakan2 abh dtg xberhenti2 dtg menziarahi abh kt hotel tempat abh n umi menginap..even sedara mara pn dtg..terima kasih ats lawatan anda semua memberi semangat dn mendoakan kesihatan abh...even thanks to p cik redzuan di sungai ramal luar,kajang kerana mengadakan solat hajat dn doa selamat utk kesihatan n kesejahteraan abh..p cik khalil ruslan n mcik najibah..yg temankan abh umi berjalan2 di one utama..hehehe..pcik megat yg belikan nsi lemak kampung( which abh suka sgt) hehehe..Hanya Allah yg dpt membalas segala kebaikan anda...

Saturday before abh n umi balik semula ke KL pd hari ahad..p cik saifullah called me n said that he will be coming...it was already late at that time..he came with m cik alina n said that abh had asked him to buy the flight ticket to KL the next day which is sunday (atuk still kt brunei n xtgk p ngah lg sejak dier msuk hospital) that sunday morning...me n pcik saifullah n m cik alina sent atuk to the airport..p uteh was already waiting at KLIA to bring atuk straight to sabak bernam hospital..and dat afternoon abh n umi returned to brunei...

pagi selasa itu...we received a message utk doakan arwah p ngah..the night before dia dikejarkan ke hospital Klang..at that time dah xsedarkan diri...xsmapi sejam after dat p uteh msj:

INNALILLAH, P NGAH MENINGGAL....

Ya Allah, ak sungguh tidak sangka...sudah lama xjumpa p ngah...maser p ngah nk pindah ke kampung pn i did not come because maser tuh bz ngn study...tak sangka i was not able to see p ngah again..T_T i was the only one yg xdpt pulang kerna keadaan yg xmengizinkan..p cik sy yg sentiasa ambil berat psl sy..yang sentiasa htr sy ke KL central bila nk balik brunei..yg selalu masakan sy n irfan...Ya Allah tempatkanlah P Ngah bersama2 dgn org2 yg soleh...

Cuma ak sedey mengenangkan hajat arwah utk pulang ke kampung dan tinggal bersama atuk..baru sebulan arwah berpindah dgn family ke kg...

But alhamdulillah..atuk dpt bersama dgn arwah p ngah di saat-saat terakhir nyawanya..di sisi m ngah...Dugaan dtg n dtg bertimpa2 ke atas keluargaku..Ya Allah kuatkanlah hati-hati kami....

Abah hanya mampu terdiam..sy bertanya..abh nk balik?pg tuh jgk...beli tiket online..flight malam tuh via air asia...bermakna xsempat abh utk menatap wajah terakhir adik kesayangan abh itu..abah ckp xper..just proceed without him..he had to go back..even xsempat jumpa..at least the support from him is much needed for m ngah, atuk n the rest of the family..lumrah anak sulung...abah bru jer balik ari ahad..selasa nk fly lg..kesian abah..

Terdapat sedikit confusion as people in UIA and even in CIMB thought abah had passed away.. a friend of abah called him n said he did not believe it..he was relief to hear abah's voice...after that the rumours was fixed n changed n spreaded...hurm..macam2...Abah n ummi pn pulang ke KL..i stayed with safwah,uswah n muna berempat....

Selama abh umi kt KL,hati ini sentiasa mendoakan agar abh sentiasa kuat dn diberikan kesihatan...bimbang dgn keadaan abah...

Ismah called me..she told me about the situation...ak mendengar dgn linangan air mata..lagi2 ble bercerita tentang adik chah( anak bongsu arwah yg menghidap sindrom-down)..mgkin dier faham...mgkin dier xfaham..bila jenazah tiba di kampung..dia yang beria-ria siapkan tempat utk meletakkan jenazah..dia ckp jgn kaco abh sebab abh tgh tido...dia jgk yg pujuk sumer org jgn menangis..T_T

Semoga ruh arwah ditempatkan di kalangan org-org yg soleh.Al-Fatihah....