six months ago......

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Department at Maybank...

Cik Rina yg sgt baik hati telah menelefon Kajol utk memberitahu kami mengenai LAP kami...

Maka cik Kajol yg sgt baik hati itu pun telah menelefon cik aufa khalilah utk memberitahu bahawa kami bertiga (ak,kajol n muiz) diletakkan kt:

DEPARTMENT OF CORPORATE INDUSTRIAL RELATION

Haih...mcm takutlah plak...nama dept gempak bkn main..Adakah ak leh adapt pd suasana di sana?

Tidak tahu..tunggu dan lihat..

*TUHAN..tetapkan imanku, hatiku dan pendirianku di mana sahaja ak berada*

EXAM!!

I'm in the exam mode...hahaha..but ya..even in exam period pn really try not to put the presure..yeker?

EXAM SCHEDULE

Land Law 1 - 03/04/09 = DONE = blur @ 1st instance / insufficient time

Banking Law- 08/04/09 = DONE = lupa perkataan integration

Public International Law 1 - 09/04/09 = DONE = no comment

Methods of Da'wah - 10/04/09 = DONE = spot kuar..tp susah btul nk kuar arabic words

Company Law 1 - 11/04/09 = DONE = xsempat jwb..

Equity 1 -13/04/09 = DONE = alhamdulillah..tp tidak terlalu yakin..

Usul Fiqh III-15/04/09

yang merah di atas tuh paling crucial..haih..

*Moga dipermudahkan TUHAN*

Bersedia dr segi fizikal dan mental dan spiritual(cukup makan,cukup tido, n cukup pengisian rohani)

Moga `kamu' berbahagia...

Hakikat kehidupan..semunya telah ditentukan oleh Allah..dan DIA berkuasa menentukan segalanya..Siapa ak dan siapa kamu utk menghalang ketentuan Allah..

Tatkala mengetahui..BLN 6?

Terkedu jap...Air mata mengalir tanpa mengetahui sebabnya..walaupun hakikatnya ak sudah menerima segalan-galanya...susah nk explain...

Whatever pn..Moga kamu berbahagia...Ak doakan suma kebaikan dan kebahagiaan utk kamu...Kerna itu yg ak hrpkan agr kamu gembira dgn kehidupanmu...


TUHAN..dtgkan utkku yg terbaik utkku..AMEEN

being no use of having intelligence if...

Fokus pd hari ini PANDAI N BIJAK, being very INTELLIGENT N SUPERBLY INTELLIGENT or any words that you may describe...

are u born to be intelligent or born being intelligent? Opinions may differ subject to one's perspective..

People who are intelligent indeed are highly respected by the society and having a good reputation. You are considered intelligent, brilliant, pandai, bijak or other terms that u may want to use when you:

1)achieve high CGPA 3.5-4.0(dpt DL-every sem)

2) got straights A's in their UPSR,PMR,SPM,A-Level or any other exams..

3) succeeds in pursuing a degree in master and PHD...

4) are a debater...

5) if ur studying sciences...

OR whatever u may interpret of somebody as being intelligent..

But it is so PERTINENT stating here that being smart,intelligent,brilliant,pandai or whatsoever is not eveything..it is not valuable & meaningless if is not accompanied side by side with other characterstics, attitude or behaviour...

Toing! kenapa? kkdg ader sstgh org merasakan diri dier sgt2la pndai..hebat or whatsoever u wanna call it..its goes without saying..ya of course...people will respect him/her..n everybody will like that personla..obviously..

My intention is nothing else but emphasizing how a person who is awarded, gifted by Allah by being so intelligent and great..should be grateful and at the same time respect others and don't act in a way that actually does not reflect the intelligence that thay have..(bukak envelope peers assestment org,per kes? just to know how much u got, but the fact u did not do anything!) maaf..emos jap..

Conclusion, this is a reminder to myself and to others..dlm menjadi Muslim yg sejati...dlm menjadi insan berperibadi, dlm mencari ilmu yg hakiki,dlm mengejar cita-cita murni..sebanyk mana pun ilmu yg kita ada..tidak smpai satu titis jejari pn di lautan...dibandingkan dgn ilmu Allah yg lebih luas..sgt...sentiasa rendah hati...

thus, being intelligent and brilliant is wide in scope
not only that u can score a subejct
not only that ur pointer is high
not only that ur a university student
not only that ur studying oversea
not only that ur studying science & technology

but

how intelligent and brilliant enough are to face the challenges in life
how u deal with people
how u control ur stress n emotions
how do you reflect urself as being intelligent in attitude and behaviour

it comes with a package being the wholly u,urself..

hp tragedy~

Is a FACT n trully a fact how telecommunication especiallay handphones are so much of importance.....

Felt the impact when my nokia 5610 mula wat perangai for which i cant contact anyone n even bce msj n even bukak contacts...if org nk kata coz nnti xleh nk msj yg `tersyg' whateverla...but thats not the point...my concern is of course my family n important n crucial matters! being the class rep n people contacting me everyday so sgtla kesian pd sape2 yg ingin contact sy!

tp skrg da ok...sbb farhina bg pinjam hp dier...okla skert..dahla hp3210 tu pn cam ala-ala majuk sbb da lama xberusik..maka xlehla gne...

tp bkn ak jer yg berhadapan ngn mslh hp ni.Berikut adalah senarai mereka yg terlibat:

1) Kauthar (UK) : Hilang hp dalam teksi Muslim warga Pakistan (lebih menyedihkan, the`culprit' telah gnekan bil sbnyk 100 paun call IDD ker Pakistan)

2) Khairun (toilet blok E nusaibah,IIUM):Terjatuh ke dlm toilet bowl (da retrieve sim card dier smlm kt TTDI) ini paling xthn nk gelak

3) Sir Hanif (Lecturer PIL ak) (cafe aikol,IIUM) : Hilang sbb tgh melayan seorang student..

Pengajaran:

1) Sentiasa berhati-hati setiap masa dgn hp masing2

2)Cermatla gne hp (bkn cam ak yg sah2 sgt gnz dlm penggunaan hp)

3) Jgn gne hp slaid nokia!

4)dgr ckp mak sbb umi penah ckp jgn gne hp slaid..tp nak jgk..ha kan da rosak...mak lebey mengetahui segalanya..hebat kan..?

Sir Hanif ckp :`mmgla 2 hari ini mcm2 btul dugaan sy tp itulah sy doa moga arini urusan sy dipermudahkan...xleh yer ker nk ckp ni suir ker apa sbb sy sentiasa percaya bnda ni dugaan, n dugaan ini sebenarnya is mercy from Allh' ^_^ btul2 sir hanif..:)

* itu sahaja*

Isnin dan selasa lalu...hari2 gembira..:)

Weekends yg lalu..tidak byk perkara yg boleh dibuat sbb Nafis ader bengkel PMR dr pg sampai ptg..

So hari isnin tula bru leh nk hangout dgn umi n nafis..hehehe...

Walaupun hanya seketika...tp SGT BEST! ^_^ dpt main bowling ngn nafis...pastu menang plak tu..walaupun score xderla tinggi sgt! okla tu kan...hehe...

Pastu makan...n makan n makan lg..hehehe..smbil2 borak2 n ketawa2..hehehe...


Smapi rumah pn dlm kul 8 n after that dptla tgk tv sama-sama sambil mkn donut...

wished that abah,irfan,ismah,awah,uswah n muna would be here..missing them so much..especially my little chicky MUNA


Nanti kita jumpa lg insyaAllah this june or time raya..love you both ^_^